xxx
All the world is made of faith, and trust, and pixie dust. ― J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan
Monday, January 14, 2013
Thursday, January 10, 2013
This Year
Camille Styles (Originally Emily McDowell)
If you have been following my blog for some time, you will
know that I am quite a goal-orientated person, so it is really no surprise that
every year I set myself New Year’s resolutions… Each year my resolutions are not
dissimilar to the year before, and like many people, many of them become a distant
thought when the sparkle of the festive season fades into yet another
year.
This year I will once again set myself goals for the year
ahead, but this time I choose to focus my energy on positive thoughts and goals…
Things that are fun, and easily achievable, all the while being beneficial.
* Live each day like
it’s a special occasion
I posted about this recently (here), and truly believe that
it is an excellent way to live. What better occasion than being alive to dress up in a pretty
dresses, and gorgeous heels, with beautiful perfume all the while drinking
sparkling champagne out of your fanciest glassware…
* Be here now
This relates back to yesterday’s post (here) as well as my
first resolution. I spend far too much time thinking about the past and
worrying about the future, and not enough time enjoying the present. (Yes, I
understand the irony of making resolutions, all the while resolving to live in
the now)
* Do more of what I
enjoy
Discovering
new music, and rediscovering old music. Learning
something new every day, whatever form it may take. Reading, whether it be
books, magazines or poetry. Writing down my thoughts and theories, poems
and stories – real or make believe. Drawing,
painting, colouring and creating. Trying
and tasting new recipes. Spending time with the people who make me happy, the
people I love, those who make my heart sing…
* Be kind to my body
Eating a healthy diet, and exercising is just as important
as indulging in delicious, less healthy
food and having fun – as cliché as it is, it has to be said that the important
thing to be aware of is the balance between the two.
“May your coming year be
filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books
and kiss someone who thinks you're wonderful, and don't forget to make some art
-- write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope,
somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself.” - Neil Gaiman
xxx
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
Now & Then
My last post is one I have been meaning to put up since
last year (sounds like it was ages ago) –
so in my mind this is officially my first post of 2013...
Last year was a battle for me, and I know I was not the only one. I thought about how relieved I would be when the year finally came to an end – and when it did, I felt nothing but panic. How silly it is to assume that when the calendar rolls over, everything will be different - All the problems of the past year will dissolve, any challenges will be overcome, all the fears that have not been faced will disappear… In fact, a new year is even more frightening. Besides all the issues that resurface once the confetti settles, the New Year will indefinitely bring with it new difficulties. You see, you take an imaginary leap from what you are familiar with, however awful it may be, to the unknown. Uncertainty; not knowing, that is terrifying.
Three panic attacks later, I managed to get out of bed. The world still looked the same. I still had the same anxieties to deal with that I had had before the clock struck 12 the night before. Even worse, these troubles appeared magnified, and seemed to warrant more attention, it is after all, a year later.
However, by some bizarre mind association, I felt better ready to solve my problems, to conquer the challenges, and to finally face my fears...The time it will take is uncertain.
Honestly, I am still petrified about
what else may lie ahead, but was reminded of a quote from Corrie
ten Boom, “Worrying doesn't empty tomorrow of its sorrow, it empties today of
its strength”, and I need all my strength to deal with the known, instead of
wasting it on the unknown.
Last year was a battle for me, and I know I was not the only one. I thought about how relieved I would be when the year finally came to an end – and when it did, I felt nothing but panic. How silly it is to assume that when the calendar rolls over, everything will be different - All the problems of the past year will dissolve, any challenges will be overcome, all the fears that have not been faced will disappear… In fact, a new year is even more frightening. Besides all the issues that resurface once the confetti settles, the New Year will indefinitely bring with it new difficulties. You see, you take an imaginary leap from what you are familiar with, however awful it may be, to the unknown. Uncertainty; not knowing, that is terrifying.
Three panic attacks later, I managed to get out of bed. The world still looked the same. I still had the same anxieties to deal with that I had had before the clock struck 12 the night before. Even worse, these troubles appeared magnified, and seemed to warrant more attention, it is after all, a year later.
However, by some bizarre mind association, I felt better ready to solve my problems, to conquer the challenges, and to finally face my fears...The time it will take is uncertain.
Monday, January 7, 2013
Weekend in Clarens
In March 2011, my lovely friend, Carla, got married in
Clarens (see post here). From the moment I arrived for the wedding, I fell in love. In the
foothills of the Maluti Mountains, it is honestly one of the prettiest places
in South Africa.
So when Josh invited me to come with him, on what was
essentially a family holiday, I was super excited…
We arrived at Clarens Inn and Backpackers in the evening, on the weekend of JAMBOREE, an annual music fest. Greeted by the smiles of
joyful family and friends united. A bonfire burning in front of the stage was
surrounded by people drinking, laughing and enjoying the spirit of togetherness.
I stayed in the girl’s dorm – Wall to wall bunk beds, with bright pink linen, and floral curtains. Ruffled covers on bottom bunks gave me the impression that there were only top bunks available – An exciting prospect for a 12 year old, but rather intimidating when considering the amount of gymnastics that was necessary to heave myself into bed. Throughout the night creaking springs could be heard under thin foam mattresses.
After a very necessary cappuccino, we piled into the mom
wagon, and deployed into town for
breakfast at The Post House – no doubt one of the most popular breakfast spots
in the town – and after eating the breakfast tramezzini I completely understand
why.
Various bands played long into the night – including Folk
Rock band, Rooibaardt, who seemed to be the favourite, and understandably so,
with their fun sound, wide array of instruments, and satirical lyrics.
I stayed in the girl’s dorm – Wall to wall bunk beds, with bright pink linen, and floral curtains. Ruffled covers on bottom bunks gave me the impression that there were only top bunks available – An exciting prospect for a 12 year old, but rather intimidating when considering the amount of gymnastics that was necessary to heave myself into bed. Throughout the night creaking springs could be heard under thin foam mattresses.
I was up early the next morning, dreading the use of the
communal bathroom – public bathrooms being one of my biggest phobias. With rubber flip flops firmly on my feet; I
closed the shower curtain, turned on the water, and braced myself for a cold
shower and was pleasantly surprised by the steady flow of hot water.
The weather was miserable, but the bonfire and a steady flow
of alcohol kept everyone warm. People danced barefoot in muddy puddles to the
eclectic mix of musicians.
On Sunday afternoon, we once again piled into the mom wagon,
and headed to the Golden Gate National Park. The sun was shining, and we
enjoyed a large part of the afternoon talking nonsense and laughing on a rock
overlooking the most beautiful valley.
Sunday night was our last night in Clarens - it is always
sad when such a wonderful time comes to an end - especially for those saying
goodbye to family who stay far away. I was reminded that rather than focusing on
the sadness, we need to remember the good times that were had, and the memories
that were made.
I had the best time, listening to awesome music, sleeping in a creaky bunk bed, learning
new words and phrases, singing songs with made-up lyrics and mostly just laughing loads.
Thank you my Joshua for sharing such a special weekend with me
– So much of lesbians for you guy xxx
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