Showing posts with label Heart. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Heart. Show all posts

Friday, February 13, 2015

XOXO

I can’t believe how Valentine’s Day snuck up on me this year…
Perhaps it’s because I have so much on my mind at the moment; that coupled with the fact that I am going to spend the day of love packing boxes. Not a typical Valentine’s Day for a hopeless romantic like myself…

None the less, I found this gorgeous cake on Pinterest about two weeks ago (originally from Butter Hearts Sugar), and in a perfect world I would totally attempt it this weekend.





You can find the recipe here.

"Don't forget to fall in love with yourself first"
- Carrie Bradshaw

I hope you have a Happy Valentine's Day!
xx

Monday, February 9, 2015

Monday Musing



I recently listened to Brene Brown's TED talk - The Power of Vulnerability. In her talk she speaks about vulnerability and how it is necessary in order to be fully connected. 

Being vulnerable is not comfortable, but it is necessary in order to truly live. Even though vulnerability is the core of shame and fear and the struggle for worthiness, it is also the birth place of joy, creativity, belonging and love. 

We have a tendency to try and numb vulnerability - But the problem with this is that one cannot selectively numb emotions. When we try and numb negative emotions, we end up numbing positive emotions too. You can therefore never enjoy positive emotions unless you embrace the negative ones too.

Believe that you are enough!
xxx


Thursday, February 5, 2015

Reflection

I have spent some time reflecting on last year – a very difficult year - and trying to see the light in every situation. I believe that everything happens as it should, but I must admit that a lot of the time I still battle to understand why.


I was retrenched for the third time – but have thankfully found a great new job, at a stable company, where I work with some really lovely people.

My mom was also retrenched from her job this year – and at her age, finding another job is really difficult. She has been keeping herself busy, and recently a small, independent job prospect has come to light - working with animals – something she is so passionate about. I really hope that everything works out for her. She is such a special lady, with the most beautiful heart.

My gran, who has always been so healthy and independent, had a minor operation, and ended up contracting a viral infection which has really affected her overall health – But despite the deterioration in her health and strength, and in turn the loss of her independence, she is so positive – and remains such an inspiration.

Cancer, such a cruel disease, took the lives of four special people – one of whom was Josh’s father. I don’t know how, but Josh has been so strong.


I had a health scare, which thankfully was caught early, so I was able to undergo a relatively small procedure to sort it out. The next step is a follow up in March – until then I am staying positive that the results will be good.

As 2014 came to an end, I found myself, as with every other year I can remember, hoping that the next year would be better. Unfortunately, I find myself in an incredibly sad situation. My heart is is shattered and I feel as if I am being suffocated by sadness. But I am once again reminded of the amazing resilience of the heart.


So much happened last year, but despite it all, I was still able to smile - I had some awesome times, and laughed often, and I know the same will be true for this year.

xxx

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Love Hurts

I believe love is the most important of all virtues.


I watched a few TED talks on the subject, one by Yann Dall’Aglio called “Love – You’re doing it wrong”, and another by Helen Fisher called “The Brain in Love”.
In her talk, Helen Fisher quoted the below poem, which really spoke to me.

Fire runs through my body with the pain of loving you
Pain runs through my body with the fires of my love for you
Sickness wanders my body with my love for you
Pain like a boil about to burst with my love for you
Consumed by the fire with my love for you
I remember what you said to me
I am thinking of your love for me
I am torn by your love for me
Pain and more pain
Where are you going with my love?
I am told you will go from here
I am told you will leave me here
My body is numb with grief
Remember what I have said, my love

Good bye, my love, good bye

Love is a truly beautiful thing, but it can be so painful too – Not only when love is lost.
I think, for me, the pain comes in because I love so deeply. It is all consuming – It is scary – It is hard to believe that another person could requite this kind of love. 

xxx

Monday, May 21, 2012

My Heart Broke


To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.



— C.S. Lewis, The Four Loves
 
...And right now, it feels as if it will never be fixed...
xxx