As you may have noticed, the frequency of my posts has
depleted to a near non-existent level.
I mentioned that when things do not go as I had planned,
they tend not to go at all, but I realise that there is a much bigger issue
than this…
Every time I sit down to write, an activity that I really
enjoy…or at least enjoyed – It just feels like everything I say is so cliché –
every introduction, every description; a line used far too many times, by far
too many people.
The amount of saved word documents that scatter my desktop,
covering loads of topics, which I abandon two paragraphs in, due to the
over-use of words or phrases, actually astounds me.
To suggest I read more books seems a very valid solution –
surely filled with inspiring writing, never seen before descriptions, and barely
used words – However, a brilliant piece of writing makes me realise how far from
a good writer I am.
Fear of failure, and the inability to do something, without
even trying, are some more of my biggest hindrances… I don’t even give myself
the chance to better myself -
The more I think about it, the more ridiculous it seems –
but I feel this is probably one of the best platforms for honesty, with myself
and others.
So that being said, I have decided to keep writing, despite
the nauseating clichés I may make use of. I will try things, that I may fail at…
who knows, I may succeed…but is it really the worst thing not to? And I will do
things that I enjoy, even if I am absolutely rubbish at them.
xxx
